As/Is







4.30.2004


how it happened

I remember
the link between sad eyed children
sucking gin in mum's perfect parquet
kitchen and
the throb, gush,
subside of my belly next
to
the last girl I'll
melt
myself for.

did I promise
anything
to her I never
notice eyes but
I think they were
brown

punctuated with
black.

does she
want what I
actually

?

do I want what
she

?

Maybe she
prefers
to guess.

she likes superlatives.
I like starlings.

we're from two different religions,
baby.