As/Is







8.28.2007


clubaffected 3

shouting in the throes of passion went suffering unlaced some place which lightning plays in her place the questions of this abyss. . .writing i still feel the flame somewhere sort of privilege. . .she i can't describe the current. . .she manager of meaning of what is suddenly there. . .

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it's impossible to gain access to this other waited a hot self. . .grasping the secret of your desire like audition matrix just like in the transgress eyes of alcohol. . .disorder face if blaze transcends her own humiliation. . .shattered drove a body to dissociation to all our words. . .blasted mowing tomorrow lawns in the distance. . .

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demented incomprehension childlike program of behavior with screams of joy. . .waiting for women of the club the dj calls "you don't and can't". . .the hard luminous nudity chewing the experience dress severe cliffs in a trough of sea and feelings jacked since alcohol was necessary intense ready to take a human be expressed. . .

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one long dark day truly seek the deceptive talking a peter out feels informed much. . .angels who zoom empty stomach milling private diaries. . .fire hostess offered life's exuberance by scoring. . .barely just aware. . .too much jubilation. . .too much coke musical positions of chic wanderwatchers that develop from g-string mirrors datafilled will explode. . .sitting in your bedroom last patron feelings wither mute. . .

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find eighteen-year-old monster check her tiny thirsts amd tiny tears. . .you have to have left someone else there where she was. . .otherwise words break down in indicating emotions. . .needs smoking you're still speaking if the normal world like portray the lost episodes to grasp meanings still satisfy you. . .

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carry night one's reality. . .stripping this boring silence i evoked every beyond this. . .each other ripped to pieces. . .obscene ridiculous movies. . .rise newspaper ads rushing out one after the other. . .i thought of necessary. . .the clubaffected person my own death it wasn't possible any more workaday suburban memory. . .

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terrible photographs vertigo. . .the desolate infuse with intensity even feel lips open that drink with identity the woman under glass seems an impossibility now. . .there's unique's blood like that. . .sense buzzing flies. . .it's just about that vague. . .she projekt cyclical. . .she nude fully shock isolation and continual poppies and punky pustules. . ."i almost knew him". . .leaving some signs drinks the mental disorder at times extreme detachment. . .see empty gentleman of impossibility. . .

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technique fade the desires. . .stays with the sign of doom a tv falling. . .there's a popular fatigue. . .scattered information ending in death. . .to drink is to die. . .the other is depersonalization feeling nonspace and its reflection be lost in its light. . .daydream individuals spiral grandiose understanding each desperation giving church eye movements. . .the end is always the same. . .to what end that's found in turning on the ground. . .fragile pot dreams rise from the disorder. . .not regular. . .bad luck sparkles in dark obscurity. . .

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the gunpowder smell of scarlet's sacraments. . .customer clanging dying away. . .babywipes help the gospel along some. . .young girls of antiquity surrounded his very exhausted appearance clearly in the prophylactic tent and porsche that juts out from the city's transparent stun. . .what nice stuff torrid summer nights. . .faces quartered a felt-tip performing drug listening to the last while y'know y'can. . .

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cradle of uncertainty went suffering unlaced some place was once more sterile. . .the questions of this youth unpetalled somewhere some sort of privilege. . .she manager of meaning of skeletal panorama of applicants. . .

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latin sky soft and pink near childlike program of behavior resting in the heroic line. . .women of club the dj calls "women". . .memories of panic touching the long-ago loves memories of feelings jacked since exhaustions of love sudden intense ready to take a human bed long ago. . .

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now recently life calls you by name in thin blue jerks through permission to exist. . .follow the pallor burning "perception rental time". . .the town's in her dark bangs. . .we went surf to minute mud dances to school the serene back again. . .costuming and stage shaved in club festival turned shadow turned spectral turned unreal there. . .four-oh-eight. . .club festival. . .

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we opened the window to scarlet's sacraments. . .customer wandering. . .babywipes help the gospel along some. . .the city surrounded his very exhausted squares inhabited by sweet spirits' transparent stun. . .what nice stuff awakened again in the last while y'know y'can. . .

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she comes to us 1987. . .went suffering unlaced some place who wakes us. . .the questions of this which makes us somewhere. . .she makes us current. . .she manager of meaning and every soul. . .

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from room to room very divorced. . .quickening "fakeness". . .rooms tickle even the coldest cybernetic sins. . .just the way the sun of celebration a high anxiety. . .the congregation like increase the death like more. . .the word came down as a distorted customer receives communion among foxy's rocks. . .where a soul. . .where your echo. . .

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window women hot christ mosquitoes. . .see lost in the widening depths around councils performed folk science. . .matters to us what is at the bottom. . .woman high on unreal shoes refuses to go further. . .what up. . .dj never gets laid. . .somebody's women called "teddy" a flame that opens up in the sky shingles. . ."fakeness". . .oh describe dear paradise's gentle and simple unbearable as homework feels. . .drink this perfume write these last words fear of alcohol or twentieth floor blind to goddamn daybreak. . ."teddy" not to become weak when some politics. . .orders a vertigo martini to erase what's there. . .